Dream Bigger

Childhood Dreams

I remember as a young child, my dream was to get married, have 2 children (A boy and a girl! Their names were to be Junior and Francis.),  we would live in a big 2 story house with a white picket fence.  Oh!  Of course, we can’t forget the dog!  He was to be a beautiful Dalmatian named Spot.  Not asking for much.  Right?

Time passes and I wind up eloping with my high school sweetheart.  We moved to AZ.  Struggled but managed to get it together and purchased our 2 story house.  No white picket fence as the HOA would not allow it.  Had a son whose name is Emil but no daughter.  We did, however, get a Dalmatian and named him Spot.

Fast forward 10 years and I wind up getting divorced. Lost my beautiful 2 story house. Spot was not allowed in the apartment complex my son and I now resided in so we had to give him away. Starting from scratch again in my early 40s and my 11 year old Autistic son. My new dream was to ensure my son got the education and support he required. I worked 2 jobs and ensured THAT happened to the best of my capabilities.

Six Years Later..

I fell in love with an ex-coworker. 

I met him when I was first going through my divorce from my 1st husband. Never really paid attention to him.  When we worked together, to me, he was just the IT Director. Eventually, I stopped working there and we each went on with our separate lives.

 Destiny kicked in and he and I started talking again – and eventually started dating.   We dated for a while and then moved in together. 

His name was Jay and he was so good with and for Emil. 

He was tall & handsome, the most patient, kind, loving, and fun person I had ever met.

We eventually purchased our new home in 2018.  The day we got our keys we danced on the lawn of our new backyard under the bright light of the moon and stars. My dream came true again January 9th 2020 when we were officially married!  The year started off great!  Life was beautiful and perfect.

Our love story was very brief 6 years but it was filled with laughter, love, and peace. I will treasure it always. Your smile is forever in my mind in memory my love.

Then COVID hits.

The entire world is on lock down & unsure of the future.  Life was crazy but we made the best of it.  Every day we talked and he was very good about trying to keep us all in a happy state of mind.  We laughed, we cooked together, we danced, we enjoyed life the best we could under the circumstances.  Life was still grand!  My little family was together, healthy, and safe in our bubble.

December 23rd, 2020 I arrived home to find my husband lifeless on the floor.  I do not wish to divulge everything that transpired between then and now.  He was only 52 years old and passed due to complications with cardiovascular disease.  2021 is filled with grief and fog, so let’s fast forward to 2022 shall we?  At the end of March 2022 I was told by my employer of over 10 years that my official last day of work would be May 8th.  I took my severance pay and budgeted and that is what I have been living off of since. I have focused on healing and finding myself again.

New Beginnings ..

Somehow, I stumbled across RRR247 , So here I am now!  Part of the RRR247 family! Instructor in training!  Here I found something that helped me sleep.  Then when I thought I couldn’t sleep better they introduced me to something that helped me not only sleep better but for a longer period of time!  Through RRR247 I have found a new family AND supplements that I use in my everyday life!  Everything from help with weight loss (story of my life), weight control, energy, brain fog, sleeping, stress relief, etc.… So much!  I also found a Fine Wine Club!  Who would have thought!

As I write this now ..

I chuckle because a year ago I would have been bawling.  This is testament of all the work I have put in emotionally, mentally, but most importantly spiritually.  When I meditate, I go to my happy place.  It’s at the beach.  I see myself there; feeling the cool breeze and the warm sun against my skin, enjoying the cold ocean water on my feet and the sand beneath my feet & between my toes.  Enjoying the the colors of the most beautiful sun rises and sun sets you can imagine.  I smell the ocean.  I hear the seagulls and waves of the ocean.  It is beautiful and relaxing.  I am one with God, filled with peace and love. 

Dream Bigger

My dream now is to be able to make a living joyfully and peacfully by the beach.  I will travel the world and enjoy as many beaches as I can.  RRR247 not only gives me this opportunity but also allows me to pay it forward.  To me, living my dream can only be bigger by helping others make their dreams become a reality too.  That is what I am striving for and what I will accomplish. 

God has brought me here for what is to be the best time of my life.  He has the perfect plan for me.  One even better than what I can imagine.